Turning depression into success

If you have ever suffered with depression or anxiety, you will know how much of an impact it can make on every aspect of your daily life.

It can be tough to wake up in the morning, find the desire to eat and drink or think that there is light at the end of a very dark tunnel. The feelings never seem to go away and even though you try your hardest to be happy, it feels impossible to smile.

What is important to know though is that these fraught emotions are only in the mind, and that there can be hope for the future. Success and a fantastic future can come from reaching a low ebb and I have the experience to say this.

Graduating from university and having the confidence to do it will hopefully lead me to more success in the future.

Graduating from university and having the confidence to do it will hopefully lead me to more success in the future.

I think that reaching out to those who are feeling alone is vital in restoring a healthy way of thinking, and I would have loved to think that I could be in the position of developing a business which will look to improve the lives of others when I was feeling so low in April 2010.

Back then, I was at Southampton Solent University and I was studying for a BA (Hons) degree in Sports Journalism. I was also a part of Radio Sonar, the university’s student radio station and I had a paid job as a residence assistant.

There was always something to do and it seemed like the perfect way to live, but constant pressure on making sure that I succeeded in making every effort to be successful was too much to take.

For three or four weeks, I struggled to motivate myself to go to lectures and work on university assignments. I wasn’t enjoying my presenting role at Radio Sonar, I wasn’t enjoying my job and I decided to stay away from Southampton Football Club matches that I had bought tickets for in advance.

All the signs were there that I wasn’t feeling right, and they continued to get worse as I piled more stress on to myself.

Eventually, and inevitably, I cracked. I couldn’t do anything to stop it and it became clear that I had too many commitments to balance out, even though I was just trying to make my experience as a student a fruitful one.

Rushing into responsibility was something that I thought was right, but it really wasn’t.

I had to pace myself instead of wanting to do everything at the same time, and that is where I learned a vital lesson which has got me into the strong position that I am in as March 2013 has arrived.

Almost three years have passed since my lowest point in life, this being something that I have opened up about at a time where constant crying and a battle against raw emotions was at its strongest, and it has become apparent that a great deal of positivity can come from negativity.

My best form of therapy was one that I instilled into myself.

Any doctor could have given me medication and counseling in a bid to restore a sense of wellbeing, but being proactive and deciding to take on a smaller amount of hobbies and interests has sparked a change in behaviour that has continued to grow.

By developing an understanding of community radio through WCR FM, a Wolverhampton-based station that gives volunteers an opportunity to develop a route into the radio industry and also canvassing for the Liberal Democrats in the build-up to a general election that ultimately seen them move into a coalition with the Conversative Party, having something to do was the best way of overcoming personal issues.

Working gave me a reason to repair myself, and this desire to keep busy and keep achieving has led me to where I am as a postgraduate and hopeful entrepreneur.

Being tenacious, never knowing when to say no or back away and being committed are three qualities which have developed, and it seems to have all developed from a time where nothing seemed possible.

This has made me confident, and I think a similar road to recovery is there for others that are dealing with depression too.

Just because there are disasterous feelings being felt, it doesn’t have to mean that things will never improve. It could be the best thing to ever happen to somebody who is down on their luck.

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